I don't remember the last time I wrote on here, but I am guessing about 12 weeks ago? I'm in week 12 of 13 for one class, and week 3 of 4 for another. I can see the light! I still have a lot of work to complete, but it's manageable.
Last week I had a breakdown at work. I think I need to pick a career where I can work mostly from home or something because no matter how hard I try or how much I prepare, people still have the ability to make me lose it. I hate this about myself to a point. I'm just super sensitive. Sometimes it backfires, but sometimes it helps me relate to others ... emphathize, etc.
For as long as I can remember, this is how I've been wired. Apparently when I was very small (maybe Emma's age), I told my dad that he hurt my feelings. There's no doubt he did although it was probably something very minor. Emma shares my sensitivity.
The episode that happened last week partially warranted a breakdown. A very false accusation was made against me. I'm lucky to have a boss who doesn't overreact (like I do!) and was able to figure out what happened, which was nothing that I did wrong, in fact. In the end, I received multiple apologies. I am still a little shaken.
I think I need a better way to relieve stress. I'm super busy right now and as much as I would like to think I do everything all the time, I can't. On Saturday, Emma and I ran a lot of errands and returned home just as it was getting nice out, so we played! After a while, I got out Emma's stroller and we walked for 30 minutes. I thought, why don't make time for this every day?? Thirty minutes is not a lot and I can do a variety of activities ... so, I'm trying to work out EVERY day for 30 minutes or more. Yesterday, we walked again and then worked in the yard. I am hoping this excitement will help me relieve some stress, feel better physically and give some energy.
That's all I have time for right now! I promise to return soon!
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