Waiting for that full-scale upswing

Seriously. Even Emma's lunch account shows several (several!) days where no money was sent in for either lunch or milk. But, I haven't forgotten even one day. Not once! I'm not saying this because I'm perfect. I know I'm so far from perfect, but seriously. Can just one thing go right for me? I am really trying here. I'm also really struggling to hold it together. Yuck!