Grief

Sometimes I type small tidbits on my phone. I usually don't do anything with them, but I just found one I wrote over the weekend. My previous post is from feeling overwhelmed by sadness for several days (maybe even more like weeks, months or a few years).

Here's my note:

Most days I love that empathy is one of my strengths, but sometimes... Sometimes, I get so overcome by the hurt and pain of others--especially when I couple it with my own hurt and pain. 

Why is the universe so unfair? Why do those with such great love, respect and appreciation for others get screwed out of such basic happiness? Happiness that so many others attain without trying? 

I'm exhausted by it all, but I have to trudge through the grief because I don't think average people understand what I mean (that's not a slam on others; it's just what I believe to be true). It's hard to explain why I'm so sad.

In that respect, I am hopeful that I can focus on the positive and become a happy person who can complete normal tasks (like laundry).