Boy or girl?

April 3 is the day we find out!

Halfway today

It's hard to believe, but today marks the halfway mark. I've been feeling so much better the past several weeks. Now I can finally understand why people have more than one child!

Complete slacker

I feel like I've missed days and days; no weeks and weeks of work and life in general. I have been SICK ... I've had a lot of days when I have questioned why anyone would put themselves through this type of torture. I've begged this sweet little baby to stop making me so sick, and mostly I've laid on the couch a lot.

All that to say, I am hoping the sickness has passed for good. I need some relief ... I need to go to work and get things accomplished. I need to get out of the house on the weekends. I need to exercise. I just need to do something besides throwing up and laying down!

Today has been pretty low key. We drove around looking at houses ... then went to eat at Gilbert's ... it was my first time there. Not too bad; I still prefer Outback steaks, though! It was just a nice day to spend with Denny. Here's a photo of me today ... 16 weeks!

Baby Tison

While the past couple days have been hard, I feel incredibly blessed. The ultrasound showed that the baby is healthy ... the tech said she didn't really see anything that indicated why had spotting, so I guess that's good! Even though I was so, so scared, I got to see my sweet baby and it was amazing! I never really thought much about ultrasound picture before ... they kind of looked the same to me. But when that baby is yours, it's so amazing! Baby Tison is adorable ... I'm so relieved and completely exhausted!

Here is the first glimpse of our sweet baby!

Scared to death

I’m a day away from being 10 weeks and I’m hours away from finding out if everything is okay. I started spotting yesterday and even though it was very little, it was accompanied by cramps. I called the doctor and they immediately scheduled an ultrasound, which ended up scaring me even more. I really, really want everything to be okay, but mostly I just want to be okay with whatever happens.

Three weeks from tomorrow

That is when I finally get to go to the doctor … I think I’m technically meeting with a midwife, which is awesome! I’m just antsy for some confirmation that 1) I am actually pregnant and 2) that the baby is growing and healthy! I think Denny might try to come with me even though it will only be his third day back at the Nature Conservancy, so we’ll see. This morning I felt horrible. I gagged and gagged when I was trying to brush my teeth and I just felt so nauseous. I almost called in to work, but I decided to tough it out, and I’m glad I did! After a rough morning I am feeling fine. So that’s all … I’m five weeks and four days if my calculations are right. It’s exciting … I just want everything to be okay and it all seems to be right now. I’m hoping and praying that continues!

Current worries

I can’t focus. I have zero energy. My back hurts a little, which stresses me out … my ear is bothering me … only a little, but I’m still a little worried … I am the most impatient person in the world … I just want everything to be okay … and everything is so far … but I still can’t relax … I read all these message boards and some of the messages are positive saying cramping is normal, but some say it’s a concern … will my doctor just get back so I can transfer my medical records and get some advice already! She is coming back on Monday, so again I just need to chill out, but that is easier said than done. I’m going home, putting on my slippers, curling up under a blanket on couch, watching TV, and waiting for my dear husband to get home so my mind can focus on something else for a while.