Near the end of 2009, so many people around me were complaining about what a crummy year it had been. I felt so left out. Kind of like when I used to play basketball … I always had my best game when we lost, so I couldn’t celebrate.
2009 was an amazing year! I became a mom and a homeowner … so many small miracles helped make both of those dreams of mine a reality. I was on Cloud 9.
Enter 2010 …
To start the year, I had a gallbladder attack. I then had surgery to remove my gallbladder in February.
Right before Emma’s baptism in February, my car broke down when we went to visit my dying grandmother. I also got sick that weekend, but the baptism was perfect. One high note!
In March, I lost my grandma. She was the only grandparent I had left … the only grandparent I had known for nearly 20 years.
To start off May, I became more sick than I have ever been in my life. I was vomiting, had two black eyes (not sure if that was from vomiting or a virus) and couldn’t keep anything down for days. After three trips to the doctor, it was determined that I had an uncommon virus, which eventually resulted in pneumonia. I missed two weeks … of life.
The year didn’t really get worse, but my attitude did. I felt unhappy despite the blessings all around me.
Today was one of worst I’ve had in a long time. I am not excited about Christmas. I feel like I have no control … like I’m failing those around me. I hope that’s not the case, but I can’t seem to shake this slum.
When this month comes to an end, I will welcome 2011 in all its glory. I will
strive to count my blessings every day. I will make sure I never feel this way again even if more unfortunate events happen seemingly all at once.
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Hugs and here's to a better 2011!
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